I thought I’d step away from the letters this time and do something a little new, so please bare with!
Whilst it may be obvious to some, yes, I suffer with mental health issues. What they are exactly is yet to be confirmed, but a quick idea would be depression, anxiety and PTSD, amongst other undiagnosed conditions. One thing I struggle with the most is my mood, and not in a happy or sad way, more of a what can I achieve today mood. Sound strange? yeah thought so.
Basically, I get into these moods where I feel as if I can achieve anything, and not JUST anything but ridiculous things! I can start my own business? Easy! (Hi I am Chloe your new Stella & Dot Stylist), Six pack? Easy! (Sweat with Kayla app & doing crazy work outs at the gym, restricted eating) Saw a cute tattoo on pinterest? (Oh you’re open and can see me now? Great!) Oh your not even related cousin in Australia is getting married? Let’s look at flights to surprise her! (Thank GOODNESS I didn’t go through with that one) and well, many more. All of these things I regret massively, simply because in those moments I wasn’t thinking straight and have cost me money which I can never get back, which would be a massive issue if I wasn’t earning. It doesn’t matter how much it costs at the time, as I have the money, but after it is just like WHY? What was I thinking? Online stylist? anyone who knows me knows I can barely dress myself let alone style someone else. Why do I think doing these things are okay? I now have a tattoo reminder ON MY FINGER! Yes that’s right, my finger. It’s a small heart, it’s not even coloured just the outline. It’s just so ridiculous.
I’m hoping I am not the only one who does these things. I think there is a difference between getting what you want and doing what you want, I’m just trying to find the balance,
Leave a comment below if you suffer the same, and what your ways of coping are.